Personally i have been struggling with chronic pain for over ten years, with a few brief releases in between.

I have used mobility aids, scooters, taken a variety of medications, exercised had physio tried acupuncture, Pilates and rest. I’m still here in pain, so what is the answer?

There is no answer, the only way to deal with pain is through your self talk, how you handle  it, what you do, and supposedly your emotions.

I recently was referred to Pain Management Solutions, they have a great team with great ideas and knowledge but fail to deliver, medicine reviews sometimes even appointments….

My first appointment with them was brilliant, i was in good spirits and we had the same values, everything she talked about i was already doing, she helped me realize i had restless leg syndrome, and gave me a few things to look at mindfulness.

The part one second appointment didn’t happen she never showed up….. but i had seen her in the room with a client as i went by, and saw her client leave, i waited 30 min after my appointment then left……and wrote my discomfort in the visitors book…

The part two second appointment was seriously different i’d had hardly any sleep, couldn’t wash my hair, due to pain level,  looked a mess basically.

I went in to her room and she didn’t even know who i was!!! Asked me if this was my first appointment……its things like this that can seriously determine how things are going to go, lack of interest from here on……

Next i know i’m been sent to a group session,that means i have to get 2 buses there, ok i can handle this. About this time i started having panic attacks.

The group facilitator seems to be nice and knowledgeable until he basically says  in a round about way that the pain is in your head…… Hold on…. i straight away became defensive, so your saying everyone here today’s pain is psychosomatic ?

Everyone looked at me as if they only just realized what he had actually said by my interruption. Bollocks to that you can tell me my state of mind contributes to my daily pain levels, but not that it all in my head… Wake up people…..

He tried to calm the group by back tracking his words but by break time they all understood exactly what he was saying i made sure of that… just another professional telling you its not hurting really your inventing pain, the only real pain is acute pain, its all in your head…..

By the second session more than half had dropped out, i’m not a quitter lol….so keep going, i must admit i have learnt some things i was not aware of.

I don’t think he likes me i challenge everything he says, or reads from his note book.

I will write more about the content of the group sessions later its far too much for one post.

Blessed Be.